From Heartbreak to Healing: The Story Behind My Song Depression

Quincy Murdock
Jan 22
3 min read

Music often serves as a mirror to our deepest emotions, capturing moments when words alone fall short. My song Depression was born from one of the darkest chapters in my life. It reflects a time when hope felt distant, and pain was overwhelming. This post shares the story behind the song, the creative process, and the message I hope listeners take away.

The Low Point That Sparked the Song

At the end of 2019, I was in a place where everything seemed to be falling apart. Stress weighed heavily on me, and I felt trapped in a cycle of despair. The root of much of this pain was a recent breakup. I had been deeply involved with someone I believed had my best interests at heart. I stood by her during a difficult time, including when she was released from jail. The charge she faced was serious, something society rarely forgives, and I supported her through it all.

Despite my efforts and sacrifices, she betrayed me. That betrayal cut deep, shaking my trust and leaving me questioning everything. I was far from perfect in the relationship, but I believed the good I gave outweighed the bad. This emotional turmoil became the foundation for Depression.

Finding the Right Sound to Express Pain

While working on my EP titled Blood - Sweat - Tears, I reached out to my producer, Duan. I told him I needed a beat that carried the weight of pain, something raw and honest. What he sent back blew me away. The beat was haunting and powerful, perfectly matching the emotions I was struggling to put into words.

That night, I wrote the entire song. The lyrics poured out, fueled by the pain and confusion I felt. The music gave me a way to channel my emotions instead of letting them consume me. Soon after, I was ready to record Depression.

The Music Video and a Powerful Message

The music video for Depression was shot just one day before the tragic death of Kobe Bryant. Waking up to that news felt like a sign. It was as if the universe was telling me that the world needed this song. The video captures my raw emotions and the journey I was on—searching for true happiness and purpose despite the darkness.

Throughout the video, you see the struggle and vulnerability that inspired the song. The ending offers a glimpse of hope, showing that even in the depths of despair, healing is possible.

Why This Song Matters

Depression is more than just a song; it’s a piece of my life and a reflection of real pain. Many people face moments when they feel alone and hopeless. Music like this can remind us that those feelings are valid and that expressing them is a step toward healing.

If you’re going through a tough time, know that you’re not alone. Sometimes, sharing your story or listening to someone else’s can be the first step to finding light again.

Where to Find Depression

You can listen to Depression on all major music platforms. The music video is available on YouTube, where you can see the emotions behind the song come to life. I encourage you to watch it and connect with the message.

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